jeez looeez!

It's ok, Netsua. I don't smoke much. 1 cigarette a day. It will not kill me anytime soon. Your comments sound really judgmental, like i'm a crack whore or something. A life without excitement is not a life. Cigarettes are legal and easy to get a hold of. pot, on the other hand, is not either one of those.if it was at least easily accessible, i would not be smoking.

So, yeah. i think the reason my throat hurts is because i swallow my saliva when i'm smoking. i will stop doing this. Besides, i can't smoke often because my mom will pitch a fit, even though she started smoking when she was 11...

Smoking also keeps me awake, which i also need because no matter how much sleep i get, i'm always sluggish. i'm surprised your the only one yelling at me. maybe the others haven't seen it yet.. i'm gonna go. ily bye!

Where's My Stash, Man?

well, what they say about Nicotine addiction is true. You will get addicted within the first few cigarettes. but it does relieve stress, which i need right now. my world is off its axis. Fuck. i need a cigarette, but i'm at gingers house, and plus, i get them from Mitchell and he's not here. Shit. yeah, yeah, i don't expect you guys to sympathize. Just saying whats going on in my head. maybe when i get back to my grandmother's house.... i'm gonna go see when Ginger is gonna take me home. ily. bye!

hectic

so many things have happened this weekend. Today, my grandmother went to the hospital for a nosebleed that wouldn't stop. It finally did after 5 hours. The stranger is officially going to live in our house while we stay at my grandmother's. i started smoking yesterday. please. please, don't tell me about the health risks. i didn't post it for you guys to bitch, i posted for you guys to know. My face is breaking out from stress. For some reason, my armpits hurt... odd... well, i gotta go. Bye!

Leroy?

i've noticed that i talk about Leroy a lot on here, but you have to understand. He has evolved into one of my best friends in a matter of 2 months. Plus, he's pretty much my only high school friend. The rest, i don't feel that bond with, like i can talk to them freely, and they won't be judgmental. it's really nice. well, i saw him today, but we didn't talk. He came into my Science class on a mission from a different teacher, and while he was talking to Mrs. Sanborn, he started saying "You should be nice to her, ( gestures to me), She's one of the only eighth graders that," but the teacher interrupted him. oh well. But i wish i could have talked to him today. This is a weird feeling, to only want to talk to one person. i mean, i have my reasons, not all concerning him, but that's beside the point. Ok. i need to bitch, but i'll do it later. i'm hungry. bye!

Questions

i have a strange urge to talk to Leroy.it makes no sense. well, he is my friend, but i just want to talk to him, and only him...he knows whats going on because he was at our house when we found out. Maybe it's the bond i feel now that i watched 3 movies with him after Mitchell fell asleep and actually fell asleep in their bed. its' startling how quickly i'm making older friends. Like today. Leroy was talking to two of his friends, and he introduced us, and bam! now i know two more high schoolers. God, i love Leroy. Not like that, you sickos.And even if i did like him, he would be my friend first, crush second, like with all crushes. Got it? i'm going to bed. Gnight: Sara, Austen, War girl, Mairead and whoever else i forgot due to sleep deprivation. Love ya!

booga wooga

At my aunt's house. she picked me up from my house after school.My aunt rose sent me another care package. Gloves, a suede purse, and candy. and a tINKERBELL PLANNER THAT I'M GOING TO GIVE TO oops.didn't know caps lock was on. i'm going to give it to Mitchell since he likes Tinkerbell.please, someone email me. My life is going to be shit for the next month, so please bare with me. If i insult or offend you, i truly am sorry. i'm not in complete control of how i'm acting.

Talked to Leroy. he was very sweet. he said to get in contact with him if i need anything.
i'm gonna go now. talk to you guys later. Bye

Checking in

well, i'm here and i really don't wan to be. i don't mind taking care of my grandmother, it's just i don't feel like lying to my father and saying that i'm home when he's going to find out that i'm not.
Netsua, i've already been through this, but i appreciate the support all the same.

It looks like i'm gonna be here until the beginning of March. Mom is thinking about letting to guy that sleeps in his tent or car on my aunt's property stay at our house while we're gone,. Which is completely absurd since we barely know the guy, and he's almost a complete stranger. Yes, i realize they are the same thing.i should probably go to bed for exams tomorrow,and to finish my White Fang essay when i get to school and to organize my science binder. G'Night, guys. Bye.