ergh

skipping school today.
my nose is swollen.
Mitchell punched me in the nose last night cuz i pissed him off... we were just horsing around and it went too far.
So now there's a cut on my nose and blood in my nostrils still.
I didn't want to go into school like this. plus, mom woke me up late so i wouldnt have been able to make it to school on time.
my face hurts.Really bad. i cant laugh too hard or smile or do the twitchy nose thing anymore..
it's not broken. It's just inflamed.
fuck.

fgsfds

so...
mitchell's home. he got out on bond on... sometime in january. I dont even remember the date now. I think it was the 13th.
been playing shitloads of mario kart.
not really eating but maybe thats for the best.
california guy? just friends. not crushin anymore, hes an ass but a pretty good friend sometimes.
*sigh* met another guy.. i dont plan on makign the same mistakes though, so he has no idea.
neither do I.
I dont even know if I like him or what.
I dont know if he likes me either. I have my own suspicions but im probably being deludued by my own pathetic needs.
how sad.
california guy is going to school. he starts tomorrow so i wont be able to talk to him for a few weeks... and now im just apathetic.. I dont know why it bothers me so much. i dont like him like that anymore so wtf...
I have silly putty.
silly putty, mario kart and the guy from facebook.
pretty much all i got going for me right now.
but Ive got mitchell...
and maybe some friends..
i dont know anymore.
Im a complete bitch.
Im pretty sure people are only friends with me cuase I scare them.
or maybe im thinking to highly of my intimidation factor.
it's just so easy to feel lonely in this big crowded world.. it's astounding.
i have school tomorrow.
i should be asleep.
but i dont care anymore.
peace to the rest of you though

yeah, im horrid, so what

so much for new year's resolutions.
so far ive pretty much stopped eating, took up an old habit already, and havent gotten any closer to learning the pokeman rap.
damn im bad at this.
fuck.

hi...

i'm really bad at this whole updating thing.
my stomach hurts like a crazed mother fucker.
I um... met a guy.
who happens to like me as much as i like him...
but he uh.. lives in california.and is going to be 7 years older than me in february...
so we're just friends.
I got a camera, a set of headphones, a pair of boots, a 5 in 1 hair deely, and a cordless mouse for Christmas.
this morning, mom gave me a shirt that has Martin Luther King and Obama with the heading From A Dream... To A Reality and a beanie that just says Obama- 44th president.

I'm still sick... and it's as if it's just getting worse. what started out as a cough turned into congestion and sneezing with the occasional cough and then back into a cough and now into soemthing like a stomch virus, but im ot sure if they're related. All i know is that i've been sick for 3 weeks now and im fucking tired of it....


alright. enough bitching.
i know i have absolutely no right to ask. i mean, I was the one who pished you away.
But as you must have recently noticed, I'm tired of being a bitch. i'm trying to become more peacful.
which means, i really do care what's going on with you and i'd like to know, And it doesnt help when your blog has been turned to private and i can't access it >.<
Please?
If the answer is no, i completely understand.
but i'd like the naswer to be yes.

peace guys. Court is on the 9th. good lick for us i hope.