im alive

im shaking, i was so scared.
most of you will not know what happened, and i dont expect you to.
tests were inconclusive.
Now is the time to start living life the way i want to.
Now is the time to fight back against our Governmantal overlords.
this is not right.
we could have all just died and we were not notified.
the government doesnt give two fucks about the people. they only care about their status and their power.

i have a renewed sense of life. it is not something to be taken for granted. i will never cut or attempt suicide again, for i am lucky to be alive.
No this does not mean i believe in god. it just means i dont believe in our Superiors anymore.
i will live life the way i wan tto, and anyone who gets in the way can kiss my ass.
i realized today how scared i am of death when i dont want to be.
i want to be able to look it in the face and laugh at it until it bursts into tears.
just like i did when i thought i was going to die.
the tables are turned from this day forth.
we get the time we get and thats it. the end.
i need to accept that.
now, i am going to go have a good cry from the fucking scare i just got.
love peace and hope
Sarah